post holiday blue

Well I don't make new year's resolutions per se. But after realizing that I have spent too much time listening to internet radio, playing video games, watching tv and basically just wasting time, I decided to go on a sort of media fast. I still work on my computer and stuff, but I really need the silent spaces. I am going crazy with auditory input.

It is more than that though. I have been on an emotional hiatus for months now and really need to do art. Unfortunately art is only as good as one is willing to express emotion and understanding of what is going on in one's life. Blah.

I joined an art association here in town along with my mom. They will be doing all kinds of shows and contests. I have to get my butt in gear now. Hopefully this will motivate me somewhat.

I think I am lovesick. But it was me doing the leaving. It was so gradual..I am so far away from Him now it seems. I just realized that lack of presence (due mostly to my neglect) is why I am truly languishing.