Quandry

I don't know. Many things I don't get but I know who is in control.

A good friend called me today. While I was talking to her, I realized just how much God has blessed me since I have been here in New Mexico. This job is a blessing in more ways than one. Since I have to wake up at 5am every morning (in order to be awake enough to drive a bus) I have had the opportunity to read my Bible every morning for about 20 minutes while I drink my coffee and try to start thinking rationaly. It has been most helpful.

My parents are back from their extended trip to Ohio. They went to see my brother Micah.
Well Micah called me a couple of days ago to tell me he got married. Uh...say what? I thought he was joking and it took him a while to convince me it was serious. The only reason I believed him is because my parents were laughing hysterically in the background at his attempts to convince me. Apparently he had to do that with the rest of my sibs too! I am so happy for him!! He married a strong Christian woman from Ohio, who has two sons.(4 and 7). They are soooo cute!

Anyway, my biggest struggle has been with pride. I seem to always be "better" than the person next to me and not quite humble when people ask me stuff. Although outwardly I tend to give the other person room to express themselves, I find that inside a was is raging to "one-up" them or condescendingly offer advice. As if.

as Romans 7:15 says: "I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. "

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