This is not a side-effect...

My driving test is tomorrow (skills test, etc.) I am both nervous and excited.
I anticipate it will go well.
i hope

One of the strangest things has been happening to me lately
I can't shake the surreal feeling that this (what is happening day by day) is not really reality. I mean, that of all the things going on in my life, that it isn't just surface stuff. God wanted me to get this CDL liscense with these particular endorsements (passenger bus, School bus) for a reason. I am painting for a reason. Something that is much deeper than what it appears.

Part of what brought this on is this: while I was watching "The Passion" again today, it struck me (the way) that Gibson took what was happening in real time and flashed back. Certain defining moments were triggered by an object, a look, a sound, whereby correlating what was happening to what had already taken place. I noticed this the first time, but hadn't really thought about the meaning, b/c I was trying to keep up with the cinematography.

The last two or three days, more than once a day, the thought would come as I pulled out of my driveway..."There is more to life than what I see." That sounds obvious to me as I write this. But I am understanding that in a deeper way than ever. There were really good things in MD and I can't let my "prejudice" (for lack of a better term) against Albuquerque taint my contentment. I know this is where God has me. He has proven it over and over. I kept thinking today that i should take this time with my sister for the next couple of weeks and really pay attention.

I guess what I am trying to get at is this: The reality of life in Christ is becoming sharper and more real than the world I live in. Although this seemed the case in MD, I believe this is the actual working of this principle. And it is nothing of my doing. I am, frankly, quite surprised by it all. He promised he would make all things new and I see that beginning to happen. And I know it is the season right now.

And for all you who think this is soley from having to get up early everyday....well....it's not. (pout)


P.S. There was an interesting segment during my classroom training last week. It was on bus discipline. Strangely enough, it gave me excellent tools for communicating with my father. (remember that prayer request?) and a peace about being able to do exactly that.